This has been a very full summer, but not just in regards to all the food we have been putting up. There has been something going on behind the scenes for me.
I've been seeking.
Earlier this spring and summer, I began to feel unsettled. As if there could be more. As if I was missing something. I didn't want my life to change as it was, per se. I wanted to add something to it- a different kind of purpose.
So, I began praying and God started opening doors.
I was reminded of the book Revolution in World Missions that I had read a couple years ago and I felt convicted to share that book with you here (our reading of it is still ongoing). Re-reading it has been powerful. After I shared one morning in Sunday School, a woman came up to me and told me about a class that was being offered at a local university on world missions, so I signed up and I start that class tomorrow night. Some of you recommended I read Elisabeth Elliot, so at the beach I read These Strange Ashes. I stumbled upon Beth Moore's video series, "Do Not Throw Away Your Confidence" (here) and have been watching her talks, feeling my confidence grow. I discovered Katie and Renee and have been changed forever. A friend invited me to go with her to see Beth Moore speak. I just got back. Wow. I'll write more about this soon.
The combination of all these events, past and pending, as well as some major Spirit motion going on inside my head and heart has left me overwhelmed, but in an awe-struck and incredibly excited kind of way.
I asked for direction and I believe it is being given to me.
In light of this, I am thinking of taking this blog is a slightly new direction. Don't be scared- I'm trying not to be. It would be very much the same, but with added purpose. At least that will be my goal. If you believe in the power of prayer, please pray for me as I discern how to do this in a way that is true to the direction I feel lead. I don't want to compromise out of fear I might lose readers or embarrass myself in some way. If I lose every single one of you, but have stayed true to my convictions, I will have peace.
So, stay tuned. If the Spirit says "move", I will move and you'll hear about it.
There is one more thing.
If you're feeling unsettled or a little empty these days, I highly recommend seeking.